For the sake of this blog post, I will call you Jane. You’re sitting at your desk, staring into space, with a blank expression on your face. It’s been like this for the last hour or so and it seems to be getting worse by the second. A quick Google search confirms that it’s likely all in your head; an epidemic known as “the blahs.” Blah-ness is characterized by feelings of emptiness, lethargy and apathy while having some residual energy left over from time to time which can result in bursts of anger or bouts of weeping.
At this point, you’re not sure what to do next. You’ve had a rough day, and even though it’s only been one of those days, you can’t seem to shake that feeling of being tired all the time for weeks on end. It feels like there is no joy left in anything anymore; your smile has turned into something more akin to a grimace from attempting too many things at once. You feel responsible for everyone else around you but nobody seems to know how exhausted or discouraged you are right now.
You scroll through Facebook absentmindedly before realizing that yet again someone else got engaged today! The news makes your heart sink deeper with each passing second as they show off their rings and post about their engagement party.
I don’t want to compare, but you know that this is what you should be doing too. You can’t help it because no one else seems to understand how easy they have it or the fact that life isn’t all rainbows and butterflies.
You start to wonder if other people’s lives are just as difficult; do my friends feel like I’m dragging them down? Do they think of me when they see their new friend posting about her engagement party on Facebook? Could everyone really be living such happy lives while I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself every day? It feels like your world has been turned upside-down so many times lately and yet nobody knows anything about it because everything looks fine from the outside. But in reality, they don’t know anything about the fights and pain that you’ve been feeling every day.
Each time it gets harder to even get out of bed in the morning because there is no point anyway when all your friends are gone. Everywhere feels like home but nowhere feels like mine so I try not to go anywhere at all anymore.
What am I doing with my life? It’s become a daily cycle of wondering what will happen if everyone leaves me tomorrow – would anyone really care or notice? Who cares anyways as long as somebody sticks around for one more day just to make sure that everything is okay right now…right this second. You start getting mixed up between reality and dreams sometimes only waking when something reminds you of her; she was your sun, moon and stars.
This is a post about me – someone who feels like death walking through the world with no destination or purpose other than just to make it until I can’t anymore. It’s about how my identity has become so twisted up in this one person that there isn’t anything left of myself but what she wants from me. There was once a time where I didn’t need anyone else because they needed me more; now all that matters is her approval and nothing will stop for anyone else, not even yourself sometimes…even if you’re dying inside.
Short-form description: This blog post discusses the difficulties felt by those experiencing loneliness and emptiness following breakups which often leads to depression or suicide ideation when the individual is unable to find meaning in life.
The author discusses the difficulties felt by those experiencing loneliness and emptiness following breakups which often leads to depression or suicide ideation when the individual is unable to find meaning in life.
They explore how their identity has become so twisted up with one person that there isn’t anything left of themselves because all they do without waiting for approval from anyone else, not even yourself sometimes…even if you’re dying inside.
As a result, this post will provide advice on coping mechanisms and strategies to escape these feelings as well as help readers understand what it’s like when someone else experiences it too.
It also provides tips on topics such as understanding your needs better than others.